I Want To Be Remembered

I don't want to end up
just dust at the end of my life.
I want someone to know I was here
that I meant something
to someone
out there
in the world.
I want to do something with my life.
I want to be remembered .

My Thoughts About What's Underneath Skin

what if the human anatomy was just a story people automatically believed?
and actually,
in reality,
our bodies were truly our souls
inside rested figures that portrayed us
obviously science tells us that there really is blood and guts
under our skin
but what if
what if
what if
underneath our skin
was our soul, imagination, thoughts
for real

But Always Too Far

I want
I yearn
I reach
but always
too far

It Boils Down to This

throw all cares and worries into a pot
let them intertwine
and mingle.
Some may melt away.
Some may stick to the bottom
and become a mess to clean.
But when the heat is turned up
and the water goes away,
it boils down to this:
what really matter in your life?
what remained? 

The Open Door

they say as one door closes,
another opens
as i shut the door behind me
i turn to look for the next door
where is it?
where's my open door?
even an arrow would suffice!
wouldn't it be nice,
if life were like that?

A Deep Pounding

deep breaths
thump thump thump
a resounding
a pounding
like none other
a painful experience
my groan
migraine

Change of Light

nothing is done
singing the blues
down in the dumps

turn to the side of fun
a new hair do
a sexy pair of pumps

everything seems sunny
now you're big news
welcome to the limelight

You Are The Reason

you are
the reason for my smile
the reason I'd walk a mile
over thorns and glass
the reason for laughter
belief in happy ever after
the reason I smile when I sleep
and I dream dream dream
of my reason for reason

Remain

through the years time does not pass
but memories are made
ears are fanned out from heads
and deafening silence rings aloud
eyes may remain closed
but we still see
our hearts can open
they still break
and we can touch
but
still
never feel

A Restrained Thought

I hold a thought in my mind
Fingers gripping its edges
the idea longs to fly away
giant wingspan spread
out of a crazy head-
but ropes of confinement stay strong
so the thought remains
in my memory

Softly Blows the Wind

softly blows the wind over your face
and the edge of your skirt billows
knees bend together in response to air's rush
 a cool wash of relaxation
the breeze is calming
moon over a sandy beach
toes curling
ocean waves swirling
a break from the stillness of life's work

Since I Looked At You

I need a distraction to
keep me from looking at you
drawing my eye like a moth to a flame
never the same
since it happened-
never the same
since I looked at you.

As If it Were Hers

Look at me
Look at me the way you look at her
Just look into my eyes
and see what I see
see your reflection

Hold me
Grasp my hand as if it were hers
Simply intertwine our fingers
and feel my pulse
mingle with yours

Love me
Love me as your one and only
Only hold me above others
Like nothing else matters
Love me the same way
that
   I love you

I Let You Down

I let you down
Disappointing you is more than I can explain
I let you down
The feeling is worse than disappointing myself
I let you down
A person, not me entirely
I let you down
I treasure your opinion above any other
I let you down

When I fell down,
I let you down

Truly Sorry

Stretched so thin
I just can't do it
I just can't win
You demand so much of me
One person can't be
all what you see
I am truly sorry
to disappoint you
I wish I could be
all that you want
I can't
I'm so sorry.

I Try So Hard

I try so hard
but I can't see if my hard work-
will it ever pay off?
Will I ever reap what I sow?
I don't know
I really don't know

Lost at Sea

Out at sea
on a raft
ocean all around you
over and over you shout for help
own voice, now hoarse
only thing, screaming is futile
old ties now broken
open your eyes
one is lost
oh, no savior is coming to your aid

Your Heart Sinks

your heart sinks
sinks to the ground
grounded once again
again the same feeling
feelings of happiness float away
away goes the smile
the smile, no longer yours
your heart sinks

Who am I Today?

Just "Be Yourself" they say
But what character do I play?
Who am I today?

A Song Has the Power

A song has the power to...
impress
distress
annoy
destroy
electrify
rectify
identify your lover
thrill a body
chill a will
still,
this list only hovers
over the clouds
go undercover
and discover
more

No Clocks

What if there were no clocks?
And the only thing that mattered was how you lived?
And no one ever rushed about?
The important things in life would become clear
And then everyone would know the truth

I May Want

I can want something so badly
In my dreams
I may cry
I may scream
I may die
But no matter how much
it may still lie
out of my reach
even if
In my dreams

I may cry
I may scream
I may die

Tears for the Future

Every time I think about my future I cry
I don't know why
exactly
It may be that I'm afraid of what lays ahead
or
maybe
that I'm so happy to have a future
unlike so many.

I Still Can't Find My Way

At a crossroads, lost, blind
Can't read the images in my mind
What do I do?
What's the next step?
I can't see two feet ahead
The air gets thin
The lights dim
What hole have I fallen in?
Confused and faint
time to fall
I gave it my all
yet
I still can't find my way

How Can

How can so much fit into something so little?
How can something so little mean so much?

How can an action cause a feeling?
How can a feeling cause an action?

How can the world change me?
How can I change the world?

Tickety Tock

Rickety Rock
the rocking chair
Tickety Tock
the clock's prayer
Prickly Shock
a rising flare
a mind unlocked
to behold and beware
Time has passed
and take care
what is lost
and caused despair
is criss-crossed
in paths entertwinded
and lies far behind
the present

Been A While

I understand its been a while
Like walking up to an old friend
Nothing caused the split
Just a rip to mend
an accident
left to breathe for some time
no reason
not important
until I reach to the ground
and pick up the renewed toy
once again